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It is freezing here ('_')
Friday, December 15, 2006
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
Santa Claus is Coming to Town
Every Christmas Eve Santa Claus rides in his sleigh pulled by flying reindeers from place to place to deliver gifts to children. What kind of snacks can give him energy but don’t slow him down? If Santa drinks a glass of whole milk and 2 cookies at every household he visits, he will consume at least 3 billion calories and over 1 million grams of fat that night. In order to keep Santa’s trip jolly and able to squeeze down everyone’s chimney; the best snacks for Santa should contain carbohydrate for energy and protein for fuel.
Tips for healthful Christmas snacks:
1. Skim milk instead of whole milk. A cup of skim milk contains 90 calories and less than 3 grams of fat.
2. Substitute high fat cookies with gingersnaps or graham crackers can save up to 160 calories and 8 grams of fat per serving.
3. Refreshing veggie platter with celery, carrot, cucumber and tomato with light Ranch dressing are great treats for Santa and his reindeers.
4. Jolly fruit compote with strawberry, raspberry, blueberry, grape, kiwi, pineapple and orange, topped with fat-free yogurt, cinnamon and nutmeg.
With a little planning and creative mind, you can maximize your Christmas food choices without expanding your waistline.
Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!
Tips for healthful Christmas snacks:
1. Skim milk instead of whole milk. A cup of skim milk contains 90 calories and less than 3 grams of fat.
2. Substitute high fat cookies with gingersnaps or graham crackers can save up to 160 calories and 8 grams of fat per serving.
3. Refreshing veggie platter with celery, carrot, cucumber and tomato with light Ranch dressing are great treats for Santa and his reindeers.
4. Jolly fruit compote with strawberry, raspberry, blueberry, grape, kiwi, pineapple and orange, topped with fat-free yogurt, cinnamon and nutmeg.
With a little planning and creative mind, you can maximize your Christmas food choices without expanding your waistline.
Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
Friday, September 29, 2006
Sleep Less & Weight More
Sleeping is an important part of our lives; lack of sleep would affect on judgment and is prone to make mistakes. However, it is not the whole story, lack of sleep would cause to gain weight. There are hormones ghrelin and leptin in our bodies; which are responsible to regulate hunger and appetite. The level of ghrelin and leptin in our bodies may be affected by lack of sleep. When the level of these hormones falls, our hunger level rises and appetite increases. Therefore low hormone levels due to sleep deprivation can result in overeating and weight gain. Most people seem to do best, when they get between seven to nine hours of sleep. Missing a night of sleep on special occasion is nothing need to worry, but consistently lack of sleep can deteriorate the body functions. If you can have a better control on leptin and ghrelin levels, you may also be able to control your appetite and stay away from the unwanted snacking.
5 simple ways to have a good night’s sleep and cope with weight control
1. Stay away from caffeine, alcohol and nicotine in late afternoon and evening.
2. Stay active and exercise regularly, but not before the bedtime.
3. Set a sleeping cycle, which enables your biological clock to prepare for the sleeping mode.
4. Relax before bed, read a book, take a bath and listen to relaxing music before climbing to bed.
5. Don’t lie in bed awake, bed should be associated with sleep and avoid reading and watching TV in bed.
5 simple ways to have a good night’s sleep and cope with weight control
1. Stay away from caffeine, alcohol and nicotine in late afternoon and evening.
2. Stay active and exercise regularly, but not before the bedtime.
3. Set a sleeping cycle, which enables your biological clock to prepare for the sleeping mode.
4. Relax before bed, read a book, take a bath and listen to relaxing music before climbing to bed.
5. Don’t lie in bed awake, bed should be associated with sleep and avoid reading and watching TV in bed.
August 15th
What is your first association of Moon Festival? Would it be the first lady on the moon- Chang-O or Moon cake? As Moon Festival comes closer, the moon cakes’ pictures are everywhere. There are many different kinds of moon cake in the market such as traditional white lotus seed paste moon cake, snowy moon cake and ice cream moon cake etc… But after all they all have the same characteristic – high in calorie, fat and sugar.
According to the research conducted by the Consumer Council on 9 different moon cakes, a typical double egg yolk white lotus seed paste moon cake (190g) contains over 800 kcal (more than 3 bowls of rice in calorie) and over 800 mg of cholesterol (the daily recommendation on cholesterol is less than 300 mg), 16 teaspoons of sugar and 8 teaspoons of oil. On a daily basis, one should eat no more than one-eighth to a quarter of a moon cake. Beside moon cake, delicious seasonal fruits such as grapefruit, persimmon, star fruit and pear could also add more festivity to Mid-Autumn in a nutritious way.
According to the research conducted by the Consumer Council on 9 different moon cakes, a typical double egg yolk white lotus seed paste moon cake (190g) contains over 800 kcal (more than 3 bowls of rice in calorie) and over 800 mg of cholesterol (the daily recommendation on cholesterol is less than 300 mg), 16 teaspoons of sugar and 8 teaspoons of oil. On a daily basis, one should eat no more than one-eighth to a quarter of a moon cake. Beside moon cake, delicious seasonal fruits such as grapefruit, persimmon, star fruit and pear could also add more festivity to Mid-Autumn in a nutritious way.
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
Thursday, August 10, 2006
An apple a day keeps the doctor away
During the hot summer, fruit is always the great choice for snack. Among all the fruits, apple is always on the top of the fruit list through the year.
Apples are packed with important vitamins, minerals and also fiber. Pectin is the soluble fiber found in some fruits such as apple, which keeps the colon healthy by increasing the bowel movements. The natural sugar in apple, fructose released slowly into the blood stream and stabilized the blood sugar level. Lastly, the fiber in apples reduces cholesterol level and various forms of inflammation.
Simply consuming an apple a day can give your body a program of deep cleaning. Apples are always there for you and you can enjoy anytime of the day – perfectly portable, juicy, crunchy, refreshing, nutritious and ready to keep you going.
在炎炎夏日，水果總是健康小食的首選。而在眾多水果中蘋果可算是全年皆宜的水果之冠。蘋果含豐富的維他命、礦物質和纖維素，而當中的果膠屬水溶纖維，能增加大腸蠕動之餘，還有助維持腸臟健康。蘋果的果糖被消化後，會慢慢地在血流釋放，有穩定血糖的效用。蘋果含豐富的纖維素，有降膽固醇和防炎功效。只需每天吃一個蘋果，就可以為身體提供深層清潔。不論任何天氣，每天你也可以享受蘋果的香脆、清涼、多汁。而且蘋果營養豐富、方便攜帶，絕對是健康之選。
Sunday, July 16, 2006
Not Good Enough
It seems like it is never good enough.
Too much, too little, too long, too far, too hot....toooooooo
Is there anything good about it?
Too much, too little, too long, too far, too hot....toooooooo
Is there anything good about it?
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
After a few business trips
After a few trips to Beijing, Guangzhou and Shanghai,
I would like to conclude Shanghai is best place in China.
People are more civilize than other part of China.
I would like to conclude Shanghai is best place in China.
People are more civilize than other part of China.
Sunday, June 11, 2006
My 1st Business Trip to Beijing
I had been to Forbidden City and outside Tian’anmen Square.
However didn’t have enough time to go Great Wall.
Quick trip but very productive.
Very Impressive.
However didn’t have enough time to go Great Wall.
Quick trip but very productive.
Very Impressive.
Sunday, June 04, 2006
Stay or Gone
Memory stays.
Reflection changed.
People I used to know were gone and I left.
Am I still knowing who I am?
Reflection changed.
People I used to know were gone and I left.
Am I still knowing who I am?
Belong
I need a place to stay with comfort.
Too many people, too many noise, too hot and too much drama.
Am I belong here?
Can't find a place to rest, or a place I want to stay any longer.
Too many people, too many noise, too hot and too much drama.
Am I belong here?
Can't find a place to rest, or a place I want to stay any longer.
Sunday, May 21, 2006
Friday, May 19, 2006
Artist again
| Your Scholastic Strength Is Deep Thinking |
 You aren't afraid to delve head first into a difficult subject, with mastery as your goal. You are talented at adapting, motivating others, managing resources, and analyzing risk. You should major in: Philosophy Music Theology Art History Foreign language |
Cool
| You Play it Cool |
 You're not in your face, smokin' hot... and it's all by design You have a carefully crafted cool persona, leaving everyone wanting to know just a little more. |
I told you " I am an Artist! hahahaha"
| You Should Get a MFA (Masters of Fine Arts) |
 You're a blooming artistic talent, even if you aren't quite convinced. You'd make an incredible artist, photographer, or film maker. |
Ridiculous I am a Capricorn too
| Your True Love Is a Capricorn |
 Why you'll love a Capricorn: Hard working and driven, a Capricorn will work overtime to win your heart. Be prepared to get wined and dined, even once you're convince that your Capricorn is the one! Why a Capricorn will love you: You don't rush things. You know it will take a while for a Capricorn to trust you, and you can wait. Social and outgoing, you can introduce normally shy Capricorn to a great circle of friends. |
January 16th
| Your Birthdate: January 16 |
 You're incredibly introverted and introspective. You live inside your head. You spend a lot of alone time meditating and thinking. People see you as withdrawn, and at times they are right. You are caring and deep, but it may be difficult for you to show this side of yourself. Your strength: Your original approach to thinking Your weakness: You tend to shy away from others Your power color: Pale blue Your power symbol: Wavy line Your power month: July |
July 1st
| Your Birthdate: July 1 |
You are a natural born leader, even if those leadership talents haven't been developed yet. You have the power and self confidence to succeed in life, and your power grows daily. Besides power, you also have a great deal of creativity that enables you to innovate instead of fail. You are a visionary, seeing the big picture instead of all of the trivial little details. Your strength: Your supreme genius Your weakness: Your inappropriate sensitivity Your power color: Gold Your power symbol: Star Your power month: January |
Sunday, May 14, 2006
Life
| How You Life Your Life |
 You are honest and direct. You tell it like it is. You are always tactful and diplomatic. You let people down gently. You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly. You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable. |
Wow
| You Are An Invisible Ex |
 You're so over your ex, you hardly even remember you have an ex You prefer leave all of the baggage behind you - far, far behind As they say, indifference is the opposite of love! |
Monday, May 08, 2006
Sunday, April 30, 2006
Investment
I was spending so much on suits and shoes.
I couldn't believe that I was spending so much money on those thingsssss.
One of the suits I tried on,
Totally like the restaurant manager.
A suit is just a work uniform,
But it was too expensive.
I don't have a sponsor...
I am so broke.
I became a non-profit organization again.
I hope you read this.
Your poor babe
I couldn't believe that I was spending so much money on those thingsssss.
One of the suits I tried on,
Totally like the restaurant manager.
A suit is just a work uniform,
But it was too expensive.
I don't have a sponsor...
I am so broke.
I became a non-profit organization again.
I hope you read this.
Your poor babe
It's all about 3
I been spending 3 days+ with someone special,
I am going to work for another 3 days,
and I am going to have 3 days long weekend.
I hope it works like this forever.
I am going to work for another 3 days,
and I am going to have 3 days long weekend.
I hope it works like this forever.
Sunday, April 23, 2006
廣告金句者，就係廣告日播夜播吟到上腦的金句是也！
由朝坐到晚 運動少
周身骨痛精神壞
無佢o黎保養
快蒼老 易捱壞
我o地o甘辛苦
擒高擒低靠腰力 靠腳力
調補身體最緊要
病君咁樣點搵食
鋤得多 傷氣力
消耗一定要補充
唔駛失威悲到極
你o地諗o下啦
咦噫 咪講少 快D食
余仁生金牌鹿尾巴培元湯 係男仕至~~佳的補品
周身骨痛精神壞
無佢o黎保養
快蒼老 易捱壞
我o地o甘辛苦
擒高擒低靠腰力 靠腳力
調補身體最緊要
病君咁樣點搵食
鋤得多 傷氣力
消耗一定要補充
唔駛失威悲到極
你o地諗o下啦
咦噫 咪講少 快D食
余仁生金牌鹿尾巴培元湯 係男仕至~~佳的補品
Monday, March 20, 2006
Friday, February 17, 2006
流行曲
流行曲
-- 大碟其他歌曲 --
三字頭男子組維園阿伯億萬少年彼得潘搞出嘢嘻嘻哈哈老婆仔女狗仔隊玩具大王新浪漫流行曲三字頭男子組流行曲 歌手：林海峰 |
作曲：Eric Kwok/Jerald
填詞：林海峰 | 編曲：Eric Kwok/Jerald
清唱 一開口用喉嚨聲清唱
這樣 才會令你為我拍掌
扮偶像派係我理想
感動 段段歌詞要寫得感動
能夠 講鼓舞及明日理想
一淺白易明人就唱 wo
假音 唱到第二段嚟個假音
震音 震爆個尾音至夠壓場 wo
慘情 我愛你抵死冇好收場
煽情 必兩粒眼淚情緒高漲 wo
去到 chorus chorus要易記易唱 wo
記住要 重複 重複 我為K迷著想
仲要 repeat又repeat 這旋律先算最強
流行曲 要大眾 隨時隨地唱
點唱 手機響用和弦聲即唱
這樣 日與夜我會到處響
日播夜播就最理想 wo
和音 要大量和住咪我走音
懶音 好有風格人人會跟得上 wo
去到 chorus chorus要易記易唱 wo
記住要 重複 重複 我為K迷著想
仲要 repeat又repeat 這旋律先算最強
流行曲 要令到 全場大合唱
再上再上 呢段要越唱越搶
再上再上 呢段會越唱越娘
爭住唱 你記住要出我份糧 冇錢點唱
再上再上 乸實塊面唱做樣
再上再上 一定會斷氣內傷
三連音 三連音 三連音
三連音 三連音 三連音 音
wo chorus chorus要易記易唱 wo
記住要 重複 重複 我為K迷著想
仲要 repeat又repeat 這旋律先算最強
流行曲 唱就唱 咪求其是但唱
我首流行曲 一定中 一定爆
爭住點唱 攞硬獎
Standard Chartered Hong Kong Marathon 2006
RESULTS (2006) - Provisional
Position Cate-gory* 957
Race no. 92410
English Name CHAN PUI KWAN DIANA
Chinese Name 陳佩君
Sex 2898
Cate-gory TFS1
Time
Official 1:17:42
Chip 10km 1:13:51
Yeah I made it
Friday, February 03, 2006
Online Devorce Jokes
Divorce Humor
..Laughter works good like a medicine...
? DIVORCE FOR WEAR
A married couple is driving down the interstate doing 55 mph. The husband is behind the wheel. His wife looks over at him and says, "Honey, I know we've been married for 15 years, but, I want a divorce."
The husband says nothing but slowly increases speed to 60 mph.
She then says, "I don't want you to try to talk me out of it, because I've been having an affair with your best friend, and he's a better lover than you."
Again the husband stays quiet and just speeds up as he clenches his hands on the wheels.
She says, "I want the house." Again the husband speeds up, and now is doing 70 mph.
She says, "I want the kids too." The husband just keeps driving faster, and faster, until he's up to 80 mph. She says, "I want the car, the checking account, and all the credit cards too." The husband slowly starts to veer toward a bridge overpass piling, as she says, "Is there anything you want?"
The husband says, "No, I've got everything I need right here."
She asks, "What's that?" The husband replies just before they hit the wall at 90 mph, "I've got the airbag!" ????
Divorce Barbie
Little girl goes into a toy store. Asks the salesperson, "How much is a Barbie Doll ?"
The salesperson replies, "They are different prices, it depends on which one you want."
"Oh. How much is this Surfer Barbie ?" "$19.95"
"How much is Biker Barbie ?" "$19.95"
"How much is Malibu Barbie ?" "$19.95"
"How much is Divorce Barbie ?" "That one is $69.95"
"Wow. Why are all these other Barbie's only $20, but Divorce Barbie is $70 ?"
"Because Divorce Barbie comes with Ken's house and Ken's car !"
Divorce Proceedings
A judge was interviewing a woman regarding her pending divorce, and asked, "What are the grounds for your divorce?"
She replied, "About four acres and a nice little home in the middle of the property with a stream running by." "No," he said, "I mean what is the foundation of this case?"
"It is made of concrete, brick and mortar," she responded. "I mean," he continued, "What are your relations like?" "I have an aunt and uncle living here in town, and so do my husband's parents."
He said, "Do you have a real grudge?"
"No," she replied, "We have a two-car carport and have never really needed one."
"Please," he tried again, "is there any infidelity in your marriage?"
"Yes, both my son and daughter have stereo sets. We don't necessarily like the music, but the answer to your questions is yes."
"Ma'am, does your husband ever beat you up?"
"Yes," she responded, "about twice a week he gets up earlier than I do."
Finally, in frustration, the judge asked, "Lady, why do you want a divorce?"
"Oh, I don't want a divorce," she replied. "I've never wanted a divorce. My husband does. He said he can't communicate with me."
When my wife and I divorced, we split the house fifty-fifty.
She got the inside and I got the outside.
..Laughter works good like a medicine...
? DIVORCE FOR WEAR
A married couple is driving down the interstate doing 55 mph. The husband is behind the wheel. His wife looks over at him and says, "Honey, I know we've been married for 15 years, but, I want a divorce."
The husband says nothing but slowly increases speed to 60 mph.
She then says, "I don't want you to try to talk me out of it, because I've been having an affair with your best friend, and he's a better lover than you."
Again the husband stays quiet and just speeds up as he clenches his hands on the wheels.
She says, "I want the house." Again the husband speeds up, and now is doing 70 mph.
She says, "I want the kids too." The husband just keeps driving faster, and faster, until he's up to 80 mph. She says, "I want the car, the checking account, and all the credit cards too." The husband slowly starts to veer toward a bridge overpass piling, as she says, "Is there anything you want?"
The husband says, "No, I've got everything I need right here."
She asks, "What's that?" The husband replies just before they hit the wall at 90 mph, "I've got the airbag!" ????
Divorce Barbie
Little girl goes into a toy store. Asks the salesperson, "How much is a Barbie Doll ?"
The salesperson replies, "They are different prices, it depends on which one you want."
"Oh. How much is this Surfer Barbie ?" "$19.95"
"How much is Biker Barbie ?" "$19.95"
"How much is Malibu Barbie ?" "$19.95"
"How much is Divorce Barbie ?" "That one is $69.95"
"Wow. Why are all these other Barbie's only $20, but Divorce Barbie is $70 ?"
"Because Divorce Barbie comes with Ken's house and Ken's car !"
Divorce Proceedings
A judge was interviewing a woman regarding her pending divorce, and asked, "What are the grounds for your divorce?"
She replied, "About four acres and a nice little home in the middle of the property with a stream running by." "No," he said, "I mean what is the foundation of this case?"
"It is made of concrete, brick and mortar," she responded. "I mean," he continued, "What are your relations like?" "I have an aunt and uncle living here in town, and so do my husband's parents."
He said, "Do you have a real grudge?"
"No," she replied, "We have a two-car carport and have never really needed one."
"Please," he tried again, "is there any infidelity in your marriage?"
"Yes, both my son and daughter have stereo sets. We don't necessarily like the music, but the answer to your questions is yes."
"Ma'am, does your husband ever beat you up?"
"Yes," she responded, "about twice a week he gets up earlier than I do."
Finally, in frustration, the judge asked, "Lady, why do you want a divorce?"
"Oh, I don't want a divorce," she replied. "I've never wanted a divorce. My husband does. He said he can't communicate with me."
When my wife and I divorced, we split the house fifty-fifty.
She got the inside and I got the outside.
What you trying to tell me?
After all I am not sure what I am suppose to say.
What do you expect from me?
It was just too many things happened at the same time,
I was unable to process everything and give the best reaction.
You couldn't figure me out,
I felt the same... I have no idea what to say.
I wish there is a script next to me that I can read from it.
All a sudden you were asking so many quesions on top of the present issue,
I was like what... is this my problem and turned to a cause and effect situation.
Can you keep it simple, which is either move on or let go.
What do you expect from me?
It was just too many things happened at the same time,
I was unable to process everything and give the best reaction.
You couldn't figure me out,
I felt the same... I have no idea what to say.
I wish there is a script next to me that I can read from it.
All a sudden you were asking so many quesions on top of the present issue,
I was like what... is this my problem and turned to a cause and effect situation.
Can you keep it simple, which is either move on or let go.
Egocentric vs. Selfishness
Egocentric
Pronunciation: "E-gO-'sen-trik also "e-
Function: adjective
1 : concerned with the individual rather than society
2 : taking the ego as the starting point in philosophy
3 a : limited in outlook or concern to one's own activities or needs
Selfishness
Pronunciation: 'sel-fish
Function: adjective
1 : concerned excessively or exclusively with oneself : seeking or concentrating on one's own advantage, pleasure, or well-being without regard for others
2 : arising from concern with one's own welfare or advantage in disregard of others -a selfish act
Although someone told me egocentric and selfishness are just slightly different, I still consider both as disrespectful and heedlessly act.
Pronunciation: "E-gO-'sen-trik also "e-
Function: adjective
1 : concerned with the individual rather than society
2 : taking the ego as the starting point in philosophy
3 a : limited in outlook or concern to one's own activities or needs
Selfishness
Pronunciation: 'sel-fish
Function: adjective
1 : concerned excessively or exclusively with oneself : seeking or concentrating on one's own advantage, pleasure, or well-being without regard for others
2 : arising from concern with one's own welfare or advantage in disregard of others -a selfish act
Although someone told me egocentric and selfishness are just slightly different, I still consider both as disrespectful and heedlessly act.
Keep it down
It was about nine in the morning,
I was still in bed with my sleeping kitty.
I was so damn exhausted and having trouble sleeping in the evening.
My dearest downstairs neighbors were talking to each other loudly through the windows.
I tried to tell myself to go sleep and ignore the noise,
however my neighbors’ discussion went on and on.
I yelled through the windows unconsciously...
“You are so noisy” and closed my window right away.
Unfortunately they just paused for a few seconds and discussion continued for the next 15 minutes.
OMG…. I was forced to get up and leave my bed.
As a conclusion my neighbors are in good relationship,
but I am not............... :(
I was still in bed with my sleeping kitty.
I was so damn exhausted and having trouble sleeping in the evening.
My dearest downstairs neighbors were talking to each other loudly through the windows.
I tried to tell myself to go sleep and ignore the noise,
however my neighbors’ discussion went on and on.
I yelled through the windows unconsciously...
“You are so noisy” and closed my window right away.
Unfortunately they just paused for a few seconds and discussion continued for the next 15 minutes.
OMG…. I was forced to get up and leave my bed.
As a conclusion my neighbors are in good relationship,
but I am not............... :(
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
Monday, January 16, 2006
My Birthday
B-day Presents:
1. 1/2 dozen of Bananas from Mr. Ken
2. 2 1/2 dozen roses from Mr. S.Y.
3. 1 Orange rose from Mr. Sit
4. 1 Pink flower from Ms Sit
5. I-Dog from Ms Bonita
6. Burberry scarf from Mr. Chu
7. Purple top and Pink scarf from Ms Comina
8. White coat from Ms Anita
9. Necklace from Mom and Grandmom
10. Lucky money $ from Ms Janet and Mr. Robert
11. A ring and pendant from Ms Janet and Mr. Robert
12. Anna Sui Perfume from Mr. C.C. Liu
13. Chocolate from Mr. Justin
14. White Scarf from Ms Melody and Katherine
15. Many ecards and LD b-day calls from my dearest buddies( I miss you )
16. Wonderful Family Dinner
Thanks to You!
I am such a lucky girl (^o^)
Special thanks to Mr. K,
Very thoughtful of you!
Thursday, January 12, 2006
Kisser
| You're an Passionate Kisser |
 For you, kissing is about all about following your urges If someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of story You can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kisses A total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble |
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
For you Ken
| You Should Drive a Bentley Azure |
 You're all flash, and you love to show off to anyone who will watch. And you're such a high roller, this is just one car of many for you... |
Underwear
| What Your Underwear Says About You |
 You like to think of yourself as innocent, even though you're not! You're comfortable in your own skin - and don't care to impress anyone. |
Monday, January 02, 2006
Standing still
Cuttin' through the darkest night in my two headlights
Trying to keep it clear, but I'm losing it here to the twilight
There's a dead end to my left, there's a burning bush to my right
You aren't in sight, you aren't in sight
Do you want me, like I want you?
Or am I standing still, beneath the darkened sky?
Or am I standing still, with the scenery flying by?
Or am I standing still, out of the corner of my eye?
Was that you passing me by?
Mothers on the stoop, boys in souped-up coupes on this hot summer night
Between fight and flight is the blind man's sight and the choice that's right
I roll the window down, feel like I'm gonna drown in this strange town
Feel broken down, I feel broken down
Do you need me, like I need you?
Or am I standing still, beneath the darkened sky?
Or am I standing still, with the scenery flying by?
Or am I standing still, out of the corner of my eye?
Was that you passing me by?
Sweet sorrow is the call tomorrow
Sweet sorrow is the call tomorrow
Do you love me, like I love you?
Or am I standing still, beneath the darkened sky?
Or am I standing still, with the scenery flying by?
Or am I standing still, out of the corner of my eye?
Was that you passing me by?
Are you passing me by? (Passing me by)
Do you want me? (Passing me by)
Do you need me, like I need you too?
And do you want me, like I want you?
Are you passing me by?
Would you like to stand still with me?
Do I really need someone to stand still with me?
Trying to keep it clear, but I'm losing it here to the twilight
There's a dead end to my left, there's a burning bush to my right
You aren't in sight, you aren't in sight
Do you want me, like I want you?
Or am I standing still, beneath the darkened sky?
Or am I standing still, with the scenery flying by?
Or am I standing still, out of the corner of my eye?
Was that you passing me by?
Mothers on the stoop, boys in souped-up coupes on this hot summer night
Between fight and flight is the blind man's sight and the choice that's right
I roll the window down, feel like I'm gonna drown in this strange town
Feel broken down, I feel broken down
Do you need me, like I need you?
Or am I standing still, beneath the darkened sky?
Or am I standing still, with the scenery flying by?
Or am I standing still, out of the corner of my eye?
Was that you passing me by?
Sweet sorrow is the call tomorrow
Sweet sorrow is the call tomorrow
Do you love me, like I love you?
Or am I standing still, beneath the darkened sky?
Or am I standing still, with the scenery flying by?
Or am I standing still, out of the corner of my eye?
Was that you passing me by?
Are you passing me by? (Passing me by)
Do you want me? (Passing me by)
Do you need me, like I need you too?
And do you want me, like I want you?
Are you passing me by?
Would you like to stand still with me?
Do I really need someone to stand still with me?
Sunday, December 11, 2005
Feeling vs Timing
Are we schedule to meet someone or doing something accordingly?
If everything is already planned,
why there are so many accidents.
Feeling just comes without a signal,
and leaves without a warning.
Totally unpredictable and always surprising,
I don't want to catch up with anything.
I have my own time-frame and I know my work limit,
so no-more over loading and put myself in a difficult situation.
Everything has its own way,
when it is gone and it's gone... far gone.
Sunday, November 27, 2005
Friday, November 25, 2005
Monday, November 14, 2005
My Presentation
Lately I been giving out presentations from 1st graders to 4th graders.
The presentations were based on Food Guide Pyramid and Healthy Snacks,
it was a great experience to do public speaking in front of children.
They are all smart and so innocent,
they speak from their minds.
So much easier to communicate.
The presentations were based on Food Guide Pyramid and Healthy Snacks,
it was a great experience to do public speaking in front of children.
They are all smart and so innocent,
they speak from their minds.
So much easier to communicate.
Monday, October 17, 2005
Thursday, October 13, 2005
Holding hands
It is such a good feeling holding someone's hand,
and feeling the temperature and touch.
Such feeling couldn't explain in words.
It is just a solid support and having someone next to you.
Nobody wants to let go and leave... so do I
In and Out
I have been going in and out from hospital.
My grandmother is not in good shape,
she is staying in the hospital at this moment.
There are so many issues blow out.
What if this happens to her again?
Can we still taking care of her?
Should we send to elderly home?
What is the best for her?
I have no idea and I can’t read her mind.
It is hard to let go or let someone down,
I have no confident making the best decision for her.
She took care of me when I was young,
she never send me to nursery home or daycare.
The only thing I can do for her is to say a little prayer for her.
Hope she can recover before the flu season.
For some reasons I have a feeling this flu season is going to be harsh.
My grandmother is not in good shape,
she is staying in the hospital at this moment.
There are so many issues blow out.
What if this happens to her again?
Can we still taking care of her?
Should we send to elderly home?
What is the best for her?
I have no idea and I can’t read her mind.
It is hard to let go or let someone down,
I have no confident making the best decision for her.
She took care of me when I was young,
she never send me to nursery home or daycare.
The only thing I can do for her is to say a little prayer for her.
Hope she can recover before the flu season.
For some reasons I have a feeling this flu season is going to be harsh.
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
Who said Women have to wear heels?
There are so many different shoes .... tennis shoes, running shoes, yoga shoes, flip-top, sandals.
Who is stupid ass that designed high heels for women?
There is no high heel for men then why women?
There is another ridicules rule is dress code in office?
Who said wearing high heels could induce the productivity?
BS blah blah blah
I just couldn't think of anything, when I was suffering the pain from toes to heels.
I couldn't wait to take it off!
Trust me it is terrible to wear a pair of high heels and going up and down through the day.
I don't mind to spend more money on shoes, but it is very hard to find a pair of comfortable and presentable working shoes.
Sunday, October 09, 2005
My Brain
| Your Brain's Pattern |
 You're a simple thinker, and this is actually a very good thing. You don't complicate matters when you don't have to. You look for the simplest explanation or solution, and you go with that. As a result, your mind is uncluttered and free of stress. |
First Time Interview
I was interviewed by local women magazine "Amy mag",
regarding of some nutrition issue.
It was a fun experience being interviewed and seening it was published.
I don't consider myself as an expert,
but I am just sharing my little knowledge with others.
It is all about life
I have done reading "Tuesday with Morrie",
I did learn a lot from that book;
it is one of books I will definitely read it again.
Sometimes we get too involve in something,
or we caring too much and focusing too long,
what we thought is right turn out may not be great.
The first medical chart I had read in HK was my grandmother's chart.
While I was reading all the lab result carefully,
I was also stunk by all the figures.
It was not my first reading a patient's chart,
it is just something I don't believe which is going to happen to my family.
What I was seeing was totally contradict to what I used to believe.
I did learn a lot from that book;
it is one of books I will definitely read it again.
Sometimes we get too involve in something,
or we caring too much and focusing too long,
what we thought is right turn out may not be great.
The first medical chart I had read in HK was my grandmother's chart.
While I was reading all the lab result carefully,
I was also stunk by all the figures.
It was not my first reading a patient's chart,
it is just something I don't believe which is going to happen to my family.
What I was seeing was totally contradict to what I used to believe.
Monday, October 03, 2005
Home Sweet Home
I am eventually home.... back to where I came from... Home Town... Birthplace
Hong Kong is a city never sleep and constantly changing.
I am getting a bit exhausted of city life... too busy for me.
Everyday I have to remember to bring tissue paper with me.
Bus 2A becomes a best friend of mine because it takes me home everyday.
Hong Kong is a city never sleep and constantly changing.
I am getting a bit exhausted of city life... too busy for me.
Everyday I have to remember to bring tissue paper with me.
Bus 2A becomes a best friend of mine because it takes me home everyday.
Thursday, June 30, 2005
Sunday, June 26, 2005
BIZARRE LOVE TRIANGLE LYRICS by Frente
Every time I think of you
I get a shot right through into a bolt of blue
It’s no problem of mine but it’s a problem I find
Living a life that I can’t leave behind
There’s no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool won’t set you free
But that’s the way that it goes
And it’s what nobody knows
And every day my confusion grows
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I’m waiting for that final moment
You’ll say the words that I can’t say
I feel fine and I feel good
I feel like I never should
Whenever I get this way,
I just don’t know what to say
Why can’t we be ourselves like we were yesterday
I’m not sure what this could mean
I don’t think you’re what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then we’d never see just what we’re meant to be
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I’m waiting for that final moment
You’ll say the words that I can’t say
Lonely
Artist:Akon
Song:Lonely
Lonely im so lonely,I have nobody,To call my owwnnnIm so lonely, im mr. LonelyI have nobody, To call my owwnnnIm so lonely, Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got to have one good girl whose always been there like yaKno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leaveI wont up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I wasFeenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuzEver since my girl left me, my whole left life came crashinIm so lonely so lonely,Im mr. Lonely mr. LonelyI have nobody I have nobodyTo call my own to call my own girlIm so lonely so lonelyIm mr. Lonely mr. LonelyI have nobody I have nobodyTo call my own to call my own girlCant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuckAround and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, IReally wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girlIm so lonely so lonelyIm mr. Lonely mr. LonelyI have nobody I have nobody to call my ownTo call my own to call my own girlIm so lonely so lonelyIm mr. Lonely mr. LonelyI have nobody I have nobodyTo call my own to call my own girlBeen all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been throughNever thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing uCuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made meBe so happy but now so lonelySo lonely so lonelyIm mr. Lonely mr. LonelyI have nobody I have nobodyTo call my own to call my own Im so lonely so lonelyIm mr. Lonely mr. LonelyI have nobody I have nobodyTo call my own to call my own girrllNever thought that id be alone, I didnt hope you'd be gone this long, I jus want u to come home, so stop playing girl andCome on home come on home, baby girl I didn't mean to shout, I want me and you to work it out, I never wished Id everHurt my baby, and its drivin me crazy cuz...Im so lonely so lonelyIm mr. Lonely mr. LonelyI have nobody I have nobodyTo call my own to call my own Im so lonely so lonelyIm mr. Lonely mr. LonelyI have nobody I have nobodyTo call my own to call my own girllLonely, so lonelySo lonely, so lonely,Mr. Lonely, so lonelySo lonely, so lonely, so lonely, Mr. Lonely
Saturday, June 25, 2005
Krispy Kreme Doughnuts
I couldn’t believe that I finished half a dozen of donuts in 24 hours.
Basically I had donuts for breakfast, lunch and dinner.
Women do need some sweet in their lives.
However I don’t want to be the first lady overdose with donuts and sugar.
I assumed my glycemic index had been dramatically went up and reached its peak.
Wow~ Crazy donut day!
I won’t have donut for next 24 hours.
Original, Chocolate and Sugar Krispy Kreme Doughnuts still taste good to me.
Thursday, June 23, 2005
More and more decision making
That's how I feel at this moment. Where am I going?
Can someone let me borrow the map and compass?
Who said women can't read map?
Once I figure out my direction and I can be faster than anyone else. haha just skidding!
Can someone let me borrow the map and compass?
Who said women can't read map?
Once I figure out my direction and I can be faster than anyone else. haha just skidding!
My List to Doooooo
1. Finish my last class
2. Post an ad. for my beloved car (Thank you for serving me all these times)
3. Call my family
4. Make reservation and purchase flight ticket
5. Send out more and more resumessss
6. Get rid of my stuffsssssss
7. Setup my moving plan :)
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
Soul
You Are a Dreaming Soul |
 Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you awy from this world So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all... But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you. Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses. Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others. Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life. Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul |
Dog
You Are a Golden Retriever Puppy |
 Tolerant, fun-loving, and patient. You are eager to please - and attached to your frisbee. |
Water
Your Element Is Water |
 A bit of a contradiction, you can seem both lighthearted and serious. That's because you're good at going with the flow - but you also are deep. Highly intuitive, you tune in to people's emotions and moods easily. You are able to tap into deep emotional connections and connect with others. You prefer a smooth, harmonious life - but you can navigate your way around waves. You have a knack for getting people to get along and making life a little more peaceful. |
Saturday, June 18, 2005
Happy Father's Day
I am not quite attach with my dad,
but anyway Happy Father's Day.
There may be some misunderstanding between us.
I believed that we did learn from each other,
different learning styles and communication skills.
Very soon I am going to see you everyday,
I hope the relationship will be improve through timesss.
Looking forward to meet with you and have a deep conversation with you.
I really hope both of us can take off our masks,
and let me know what was in your mind all these times.
There is always a reason behind every decision,
I would like take this opportunity to get to know you before it is getting too late.
but anyway Happy Father's Day.
There may be some misunderstanding between us.
I believed that we did learn from each other,
different learning styles and communication skills.
Very soon I am going to see you everyday,
I hope the relationship will be improve through timesss.
Looking forward to meet with you and have a deep conversation with you.
I really hope both of us can take off our masks,
and let me know what was in your mind all these times.
There is always a reason behind every decision,
I would like take this opportunity to get to know you before it is getting too late.
Step by step
Problem comes one after and other,
I realized problem solving is so important.
There are so many things that I really love to do,
however there is an opportunity cost for everything.
The key to succeed is to handle one at a time,
aim at the target and hit on it before the next target comes.
I can't afford to act like a lost puppy all the time.
I guess I have to make a list and set priority of each task.
Wish me luck ....
I realized problem solving is so important.
There are so many things that I really love to do,
however there is an opportunity cost for everything.
The key to succeed is to handle one at a time,
aim at the target and hit on it before the next target comes.
I can't afford to act like a lost puppy all the time.
I guess I have to make a list and set priority of each task.
Wish me luck ....
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
溫柔
我們總是注意看到的溫柔，喜歡柔柔好聽的聲音，抗拒不了察覺得到的體貼。
有時卻沒發覺，被忽略的溫柔。
溫柔，有時沒說出口，也難以發現。
有的溫柔像空氣一樣，圍繞在我們四周，看不到也摸不著，但它還是溫柔。
溫柔，有時沒說出口，也難以發現。
我們都無法抗拒溫柔，是不是在四周有被我們遺漏的溫柔？
溫柔不是一直都在的，就像咖啡的香味也不是一輩子都不散的。
有時卻沒發覺，被忽略的溫柔。
溫柔，有時沒說出口，也難以發現。
有的溫柔像空氣一樣，圍繞在我們四周，看不到也摸不著，但它還是溫柔。
溫柔，有時沒說出口，也難以發現。
我們都無法抗拒溫柔，是不是在四周有被我們遺漏的溫柔？
溫柔不是一直都在的，就像咖啡的香味也不是一輩子都不散的。
幸運
「手把青秧插滿田，低頭便見水中天；
心地清淨方為道，退步原來是向前。」
世上本來就不公平，我們際遇不好，卻有人比我們更糟；
我們怨上天不公平，那麼換成我們是老天爺呢？
我們能做得更好嗎？
凡事要多方面想想，其實自己是很幸運的了。
其實 快樂如果也可以”分期付款”
那我就可以一天快樂一點兒 每天都有一點兒
心地清淨方為道，退步原來是向前。」
世上本來就不公平，我們際遇不好，卻有人比我們更糟；
我們怨上天不公平，那麼換成我們是老天爺呢？
我們能做得更好嗎？
凡事要多方面想想，其實自己是很幸運的了。
其實 快樂如果也可以”分期付款”
那我就可以一天快樂一點兒 每天都有一點兒
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
Angel's Snow
Once upon a time there was a legend about Angel's snow.
People believed that the first snow fell in winter was Angel's snow.
However Angel's snow brought sadness and regret,
for those who caught it in their hands.
Angel's snow was the Angel's tears,
supposed to let it falls.
Let the sadness falls and evaporates......
People believed that the first snow fell in winter was Angel's snow.
However Angel's snow brought sadness and regret,
for those who caught it in their hands.
Angel's snow was the Angel's tears,
supposed to let it falls.
Let the sadness falls and evaporates......
Thursday, June 09, 2005
Rainny Day
I was reviewing what you told me,
every sentence, every word from you.
Thank you for your honesty and sincere,
I am glad to know you.
It is fate which brings us together;
I do cherish you and always wishing you well.
Thank you :)
every sentence, every word from you.
Thank you for your honesty and sincere,
I am glad to know you.
It is fate which brings us together;
I do cherish you and always wishing you well.
Thank you :)
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
Tuesday, May 31, 2005
Different points of view
People react differently toward the same issue.
I would say there is no "should" or "must".
I tried to follow my heart to explore.
Others may seeing me established a pattern or living in a cycle,
but wait a minute.... this is my life and this is what I had chosen.
I did learn from my past, which I will stay away from mistake.
I don't see any problem of my believe, and I don't to influence by others.
I am not that stubborn or being not flexible, however I need some privacy.
I will listen and take it as consideration,
but pls show me some respect.
I would say there is no "should" or "must".
I tried to follow my heart to explore.
Others may seeing me established a pattern or living in a cycle,
but wait a minute.... this is my life and this is what I had chosen.
I did learn from my past, which I will stay away from mistake.
I don't see any problem of my believe, and I don't to influence by others.
I am not that stubborn or being not flexible, however I need some privacy.
I will listen and take it as consideration,
but pls show me some respect.
Sunday, May 29, 2005
Profile has been view
Today when I logged in to my friendster,
the first thing I realized was my profile has been viewed for 128 times since May 2nd.
Mental calculation:
May 29 - May 2
= 27 days
My profile viewed for 128 times in 27 days.
I know many people probably have their profile viewed more times than mine, however it made me wonder who views my profile anyway?
Thank you for even bother to view my profile, although somehow, it also seems kinda creepy to me. creepy and weird, but in a non-negative kinda way. hmmm..
the first thing I realized was my profile has been viewed for 128 times since May 2nd.
Mental calculation:
May 29 - May 2
= 27 days
My profile viewed for 128 times in 27 days.
I know many people probably have their profile viewed more times than mine, however it made me wonder who views my profile anyway?
Thank you for even bother to view my profile, although somehow, it also seems kinda creepy to me. creepy and weird, but in a non-negative kinda way. hmmm..
Friday, May 27, 2005
Disappearance
I been disappeared to some of my friends for awhile.
I was not ready to deal with any kind of relationship.
I was tired to explain what was happening to me.
I was more quiet and not as socialize as before.
There are somethings I would to save it for myself.
I was not ready to deal with any kind of relationship.
I was tired to explain what was happening to me.
I was more quiet and not as socialize as before.
There are somethings I would to save it for myself.
Thursday, May 26, 2005
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
According to....
I was having a feeling that I have been thinking of the same problem over and over in my mind.
I do feel it is very exhausting, but I can't help it.
According to the psychologist,
it is one of the symptoms of depression.
Secondly college students are trained to get the answer.
Problem solving is one of typical tasks in our daily life,
however not every single question has an answer.
Some answers are not available at this moment or
it is fine to say "I don't have the answer for the question."
I do feel it is very exhausting, but I can't help it.
According to the psychologist,
it is one of the symptoms of depression.
Secondly college students are trained to get the answer.
Problem solving is one of typical tasks in our daily life,
however not every single question has an answer.
Some answers are not available at this moment or
it is fine to say "I don't have the answer for the question."
Animal Farm
I heard a story from my food science lab few weeks ago, when we were doing a lab on egg products. It is about story of a farm owner, who had many chickens. One day he decided to kill one of chickens, and then he picked the chicken that was laying very few eggs. He found a chicken, which was not laying egg everyday. When he killed the chicken and cut up its stomach, he found there was an egg about to come out. The eggshell was still very soft inside the chicken’s stomach. The owner was very upset, because there was a relationship had been established between the owner and chickens. The owner treated the chickens as his pets as he feeding them everyday. He thought he made a right decision at the beginning, until he saw the egg in the chicken’s stomach. All these times the chicken was trying to lay an egg for the owner, however it was getting old and unable to lay an egg everyday. I found it is a very sad simple story, but it did inspire me a lot. It showed the reality and how reality works. The story replays in my mind frequently, and keeps remind me about the truth of reality. I shared the story with my counselor; she asked which role am I playing among the chicken, the egg or the owner. I don’t want to play any role among all three characters, because none of them have a good ending. However I did add a few comments, sometimes we can be the owner, sometimes we can be the chicken and sometimes we can be the egg. I do understand that there are things we could not get away and we have to make the decision seems like to be right for us. Nevertheless what made us consider to be right or wrong, we never know until we get to the result. I was trying to keep myself positive, but there is gray area that I cannot stay away. The owner was picking the chicken by looking at its productivity, but he was regretted after he killed the chicken. It does make sense for everybody to eliminate the failures, and keep all the good ones. Once the decision is made and it is not reversible. There are many times that we couldn't take our words back, or the situation does not allow us to take it back. There are many people get layoff everyday and it happens to everywhere. Bosses have to make the decision for selecting the best employees in order to lower the production cost. Sometimes decision could not satisfy everyone, only a few people or maybe only one person is benefits from the result. In another words I would say we knew the decision may hurt someone, but on the other hand it benefits another. I don’t want to judge people or mistrust the other, but the reality does change my decision-making. I try not to be egocentric or being selfish, but the bottom line is I have to live with the reality. What I was doing was totally contradicting to what I used to believe. I never live in the fairy tale; there is nothing perfect in my life. I questioned myself did I ever try to please everyone, and I knew that I am not the number one or nothing I have complete at this time. I am not complaining things that happened in my life, because my experience shaped my personality. I learned from my failure and success and I am going to live with it.
Friday, May 20, 2005
Temporary out of order
I thought it was temporary out of order,
but it still takes me some time to fix my system.
While I was taking the exam this morning,
the people sitting around me were either system busy or loading system in their mind.
After I took the food science class final,
I told myself that might be last food science exam.
I should have this feeling before the exam,
then I could enjoy every moment during the final.
but it still takes me some time to fix my system.
While I was taking the exam this morning,
the people sitting around me were either system busy or loading system in their mind.
After I took the food science class final,
I told myself that might be last food science exam.
I should have this feeling before the exam,
then I could enjoy every moment during the final.
Monday, May 16, 2005
Ouch~
Today the electricity was out in the middle of the night. I was sitting in front of my laptop with the backup battery, which was going to last for two and half hours. I was thinking if the electricity is not back within two hours; I am going to school and look for an empty classroom to finish the rest of the assignment. I been questioning myself a lot lately and there were so many old memories came back to me. There were so many things that I used to believe but I don’t believe anymore. Pressure always lives with me and I am not ready to deal with it. I do understand that I need to move on and I have get myself out of here. However life is full of surprises, you never know what is going to happen next. Electricity is back.
Thursday, May 12, 2005
Notice
Some people notice it,
some people don't.
I can be a good actress,
in front of some people.
I just pretend nothing had happened.
some people don't.
I can be a good actress,
in front of some people.
I just pretend nothing had happened.
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
No matter what
No matter what I still have to do what I have to do.
I been working on long lasting case studies for last 3 days.
I have to finish it tomorrow and get it out of my way.
I am scare around people,
but I don't mean to be antisocial.
I am not ready to participate in group,
I am very nervous in front of people.
I been working on long lasting case studies for last 3 days.
I have to finish it tomorrow and get it out of my way.
I am scare around people,
but I don't mean to be antisocial.
I am not ready to participate in group,
I am very nervous in front of people.
Monday, May 09, 2005
Forgiveness
Am I being forgive? Or being punish?
I am not sure.
Learning how to forgive people,
then you will be forgiven.
However something is going to stay with me,
I have to learn how to live with it.
Do I born with it which runs in the family?
How am I going to deal with it with the rest of my life?
I wasn't like that before.
What is wrong with me?
Why I put myself in this situation.
I was once promised myself that I would never put myself in a difficult situation.
Then now what...
I broke my promise.
I am not sure.
Learning how to forgive people,
then you will be forgiven.
However something is going to stay with me,
I have to learn how to live with it.
Do I born with it which runs in the family?
How am I going to deal with it with the rest of my life?
I wasn't like that before.
What is wrong with me?
Why I put myself in this situation.
I was once promised myself that I would never put myself in a difficult situation.
Then now what...
I broke my promise.
Sunday, May 08, 2005
Underestimated
There were so many things that I was underestimated. I underestimated my tolerance and my mentality. There were many times I thought I was able to handle it or let something go, but things didn’t go the way I wanted to be. End up with disappointment and at a point I would like to give up. Sadness follows me around. There is a reason behind everything, and everything has its value of existence. Problem doesn’t develop in a day, it takes time to build up and resolve. Ignoring a problem is like rolling a snowball; by the time I realize it was too late to break it.
Um.....
I am having a feeling of my heart is so heavy, and there is a rock in my head.
I am unable to perform analytical task or required too much thinking.
I became very stressful when I keep digging the facts or the reasons behind.
I am so shallow
I am unable to perform analytical task or required too much thinking.
I became very stressful when I keep digging the facts or the reasons behind.
I am so shallow
Playground
Have u even play hide and seek?
I am still playing hide and seek sometimes.
Sometimes ppl hide and sometimes ppl seek.
I am just one of those ppl.
Have u even play merry-go-around?
I am still playing merry-go-around.
I am still dizzy and seeing things go around me.
Have u even play seesaw?
Sometimes I see something,
Sometimes I dont...
Thing seems like in front of me in this second,
and disappear in the next second.
posted by Coca Cola @ 3:06 PM 0 comments
I am still playing hide and seek sometimes.
Sometimes ppl hide and sometimes ppl seek.
I am just one of those ppl.
Have u even play merry-go-around?
I am still playing merry-go-around.
I am still dizzy and seeing things go around me.
Have u even play seesaw?
Sometimes I see something,
Sometimes I dont...
Thing seems like in front of me in this second,
and disappear in the next second.
posted by Coca Cola @ 3:06 PM 0 comments
Thanks
Dear Dr. Lowenberg,
Thank you very much for your support. Get well soon.. I am not sure I am saying to u or myself. Thanks for there for me and little white handkerchief. The white handkerchief is always with me and I always remember your words. Thanks for providing a shelter for me. Everytime you say "tell me tell me", I was unable to speak a word. My tears just told the whole story. When you looked at me like your daughter and you can feel my pain. My Jewish daddy... Thanks for your encouragement. Sorry that I let you down last tuesday.
Thank you very much for your support. Get well soon.. I am not sure I am saying to u or myself. Thanks for there for me and little white handkerchief. The white handkerchief is always with me and I always remember your words. Thanks for providing a shelter for me. Everytime you say "tell me tell me", I was unable to speak a word. My tears just told the whole story. When you looked at me like your daughter and you can feel my pain. My Jewish daddy... Thanks for your encouragement. Sorry that I let you down last tuesday.
Unfinished Business
All sudden I am back to reality.
I had accumulated so much work.
I am not sure I can complete it or leave it blank.
The truth is hurts and I was pushed to see the truth.
I had accumulated so much work.
I am not sure I can complete it or leave it blank.
The truth is hurts and I was pushed to see the truth.
Saturday, May 07, 2005
The Little Match Girl
Most terribly cold it was; it snowed, and was nearly quite dark, and evening-- the last evening of the year. In this cold and darkness there went along the street a poor little girl, bareheaded, and with naked feet. When she left home she had slippers on, it is true; but what was the good of that? They were very large slippers, which her mother had hitherto worn; so large were they; and the poor little thing lost them as she scuffled away across the street, because of two carriages that rolled by dreadfully fast.
One slipper was nowhere to be found; the other had been laid hold of by an urchin, and off he ran with it; he thought it would do capitally for a cradle when he some day or other should have children himself. So the little maiden walked on with her tiny naked feet, that were quite red and blue from cold. She carried a quantity of matches in an old apron, and she held a bundle of them in her hand. Nobody had bought anything of her the whole livelong day; no one had given her a single farthing.
She crept along trembling with cold and hunger--a very picture of sorrow, the poor little thing!
The flakes of snow covered her long fair hair, which fell in beautiful curls around her neck; but of that, of course, she never once now thought. From all the windows the candles were gleaming, and it smelt so deliciously of roast goose, for you know it was New Year's Eve; yes, of that she thought.
In a corner formed by two houses, of which one advanced more than the other, she seated herself down and cowered together. Her little feet she had drawn close up to her, but she grew colder and colder, and to go home she did not venture, for she had not sold any matches and could not bring a farthing of money: from her father she would certainly get blows, and at home it was cold too, for above her she had only the roof, through which the wind whistled, even though the largest cracks were stopped up with straw and rags.
Her little hands were almost numbed with cold. Oh! a match might afford her a world of comfort, if she only dared take a single one out of the bundle, draw it against the wall, and warm her fingers by it. She drew one out. "Rischt!" how it blazed, how it burnt! It was a warm, bright flame, like a candle, as she held her hands over it: it was a wonderful light. It seemed really to the little maiden as though she were sitting before a large iron stove, with burnished brass feet and a brass ornament at top. The fire burned with such blessed influence; it warmed so delightfully. The little girl had already stretched out her feet to warm them too; but--the small flame went out, the stove vanished: she had only the remains of the burnt-out match in her hand.
She rubbed another against the wall: it burned brightly, and where the light fell on the wall, there the wall became transparent like a veil, so that she could see into the room. On the table was spread a snow-white tablecloth; upon it was a splendid porcelain service, and the roast goose was steaming famously with its stuffing of apple and dried plums. And what was still more capital to behold was, the goose hopped down from the dish, reeled about on the floor with knife and fork in its breast, till it came up to the poor little girl; when--the match went out and nothing but the thick, cold, damp wall was left behind. She lighted another match. Now there she was sitting under the most magnificent Christmas tree: it was still larger, and more decorated than the one which she had seen through the glass door in the rich merchant's house.
Thousands of lights were burning on the green branches, and gaily-colored pictures, such as she had seen in the shop-windows, looked down upon her. The little maiden stretched out her hands towards them when--the match went out. The lights of the Christmas tree rose higher and higher, she saw them now as stars in heaven; one fell down and formed a long trail of fire.
"Someone is just dead!" said the little girl; for her old grandmother, the only person who had loved her, and who was now no more, had told her, that when a star falls, a soul ascends to God.
She drew another match against the wall: it was again light, and in the lustre there stood the old grandmother, so bright and radiant, so mild, and with such an expression of love.
"Grandmother!" cried the little one. "Oh, take me with you! You go away when the match burns out; you vanish like the warm stove, like the delicious roast goose, and like the magnificent Christmas tree!" And she rubbed the whole bundle of matches quickly against the wall, for she wanted to be quite sure of keeping her grandmother near her. And the matches gave such a brilliant light that it was brighter than at noon-day: never formerly had the grandmother been so beautiful and so tall. She took the little maiden, on her arm, and both flew in brightness and in joy so high, so very high, and then above was neither cold, nor hunger, nor anxiety--they were with God.
But in the corner, at the cold hour of dawn, sat the poor girl, with rosy cheeks and with a smiling mouth, leaning against the wall--frozen to death on the last evening of the old year. Stiff and stark sat the child there with her matches, of which one bundle had been burnt. "She wanted to warm herself," people said. No one had the slightest suspicion of what beautiful things she had seen; no one even dreamed of the splendor in which, with her grandmother she had entered on the joys of a new year.
One slipper was nowhere to be found; the other had been laid hold of by an urchin, and off he ran with it; he thought it would do capitally for a cradle when he some day or other should have children himself. So the little maiden walked on with her tiny naked feet, that were quite red and blue from cold. She carried a quantity of matches in an old apron, and she held a bundle of them in her hand. Nobody had bought anything of her the whole livelong day; no one had given her a single farthing.
She crept along trembling with cold and hunger--a very picture of sorrow, the poor little thing!
The flakes of snow covered her long fair hair, which fell in beautiful curls around her neck; but of that, of course, she never once now thought. From all the windows the candles were gleaming, and it smelt so deliciously of roast goose, for you know it was New Year's Eve; yes, of that she thought.
In a corner formed by two houses, of which one advanced more than the other, she seated herself down and cowered together. Her little feet she had drawn close up to her, but she grew colder and colder, and to go home she did not venture, for she had not sold any matches and could not bring a farthing of money: from her father she would certainly get blows, and at home it was cold too, for above her she had only the roof, through which the wind whistled, even though the largest cracks were stopped up with straw and rags.
Her little hands were almost numbed with cold. Oh! a match might afford her a world of comfort, if she only dared take a single one out of the bundle, draw it against the wall, and warm her fingers by it. She drew one out. "Rischt!" how it blazed, how it burnt! It was a warm, bright flame, like a candle, as she held her hands over it: it was a wonderful light. It seemed really to the little maiden as though she were sitting before a large iron stove, with burnished brass feet and a brass ornament at top. The fire burned with such blessed influence; it warmed so delightfully. The little girl had already stretched out her feet to warm them too; but--the small flame went out, the stove vanished: she had only the remains of the burnt-out match in her hand.
She rubbed another against the wall: it burned brightly, and where the light fell on the wall, there the wall became transparent like a veil, so that she could see into the room. On the table was spread a snow-white tablecloth; upon it was a splendid porcelain service, and the roast goose was steaming famously with its stuffing of apple and dried plums. And what was still more capital to behold was, the goose hopped down from the dish, reeled about on the floor with knife and fork in its breast, till it came up to the poor little girl; when--the match went out and nothing but the thick, cold, damp wall was left behind. She lighted another match. Now there she was sitting under the most magnificent Christmas tree: it was still larger, and more decorated than the one which she had seen through the glass door in the rich merchant's house.
Thousands of lights were burning on the green branches, and gaily-colored pictures, such as she had seen in the shop-windows, looked down upon her. The little maiden stretched out her hands towards them when--the match went out. The lights of the Christmas tree rose higher and higher, she saw them now as stars in heaven; one fell down and formed a long trail of fire.
"Someone is just dead!" said the little girl; for her old grandmother, the only person who had loved her, and who was now no more, had told her, that when a star falls, a soul ascends to God.
She drew another match against the wall: it was again light, and in the lustre there stood the old grandmother, so bright and radiant, so mild, and with such an expression of love.
"Grandmother!" cried the little one. "Oh, take me with you! You go away when the match burns out; you vanish like the warm stove, like the delicious roast goose, and like the magnificent Christmas tree!" And she rubbed the whole bundle of matches quickly against the wall, for she wanted to be quite sure of keeping her grandmother near her. And the matches gave such a brilliant light that it was brighter than at noon-day: never formerly had the grandmother been so beautiful and so tall. She took the little maiden, on her arm, and both flew in brightness and in joy so high, so very high, and then above was neither cold, nor hunger, nor anxiety--they were with God.
But in the corner, at the cold hour of dawn, sat the poor girl, with rosy cheeks and with a smiling mouth, leaning against the wall--frozen to death on the last evening of the old year. Stiff and stark sat the child there with her matches, of which one bundle had been burnt. "She wanted to warm herself," people said. No one had the slightest suspicion of what beautiful things she had seen; no one even dreamed of the splendor in which, with her grandmother she had entered on the joys of a new year.
Same scene repeating in my mind
I was preschooler and my mom was walking me to school.
I fell on the way to school and my mom thought I was not going to cry.
However less a minute, I was crying very hard and my mom carried me to school.
The school janitor cleaned my wound and comforted me.
May be it was my first fell and first time experience of pain.
I fell on the way to school and my mom thought I was not going to cry.
However less a minute, I was crying very hard and my mom carried me to school.
The school janitor cleaned my wound and comforted me.
May be it was my first fell and first time experience of pain.
Once upon a time
i'm not exactly the most patient person around,
nor will i be the nicest person you will ever know.
I am not the most understanding person,
who can speak for your mind.
i can't give you the best of everything.
only the best that i can offer.
i can't guarantee you will be happy all the time.
only that i am always trying to.
thank you for loving me.
nor will i be the nicest person you will ever know.
I am not the most understanding person,
who can speak for your mind.
i can't give you the best of everything.
only the best that i can offer.
i can't guarantee you will be happy all the time.
only that i am always trying to.
thank you for loving me.
Friday, May 06, 2005
Few Weeks Ago
My grandmother was in dream few weeks ago.
My grandmother is having Parkinson disease and lost some of her memory.
She took care of me when I was young and she is most patient person I ever knew.
I miss her alot and I do care about her alot.
In my dream she was doing fine without suffering from illness,
we had a great time sharing.
By the end of the dream,
she told me there is something I should let it go three years ago.
I was like "what do you mean?"
She said I knew what she meant.
That's right.
My grandmother is having Parkinson disease and lost some of her memory.
She took care of me when I was young and she is most patient person I ever knew.
I miss her alot and I do care about her alot.
In my dream she was doing fine without suffering from illness,
we had a great time sharing.
By the end of the dream,
she told me there is something I should let it go three years ago.
I was like "what do you mean?"
She said I knew what she meant.
That's right.
Wishing and Blessing
Just heard a story about a little girl in Japan:
"Have you watched a Japanese program? It talks about a little girl to complete her daddy's wish before his deathwith a teddy bear? "
"That little girl's daddy falls ill very heavily, and would die soon! The little girl is also sick, but is not as serious as her dady. Even though he is gonna die soon, he still try to comfort his little daughter, and tell her that they are gonna go around the world when they get better. "
" But .... her daddy soon passed away! The little girl is very sad. But, remembers daddy's dream of going around the world isn't realized yet, she then thought that she must help ot realize this dream! She regard her teddy bear as her daddy, then inscribed the name of her daddy, and her only name on the teddy bear hoping that whoever got this teddy bear would bring it along in their travel and give it to the next person, and that the teddy bear would keep on travelling."
"And the teddy bear started to go around the world. People pass it on, no matter whether they knew each other or not. It's just a very simple thing."
"People in the TV program asked the girl to appear in the show, and let her talk to a person from germany, telling her that the teddy bear has travelled in 17 countries. The teddy bear is very clean, and have many accesories on it. The teddy bear is safe, so her daddy and her are safe too. The journey for the teddy bear would go on, and the little girl can relax."
I wish my teddy bear and his daddy is doing fine.
"Have you watched a Japanese program? It talks about a little girl to complete her daddy's wish before his deathwith a teddy bear? "
"That little girl's daddy falls ill very heavily, and would die soon! The little girl is also sick, but is not as serious as her dady. Even though he is gonna die soon, he still try to comfort his little daughter, and tell her that they are gonna go around the world when they get better. "
" But .... her daddy soon passed away! The little girl is very sad. But, remembers daddy's dream of going around the world isn't realized yet, she then thought that she must help ot realize this dream! She regard her teddy bear as her daddy, then inscribed the name of her daddy, and her only name on the teddy bear hoping that whoever got this teddy bear would bring it along in their travel and give it to the next person, and that the teddy bear would keep on travelling."
"And the teddy bear started to go around the world. People pass it on, no matter whether they knew each other or not. It's just a very simple thing."
"People in the TV program asked the girl to appear in the show, and let her talk to a person from germany, telling her that the teddy bear has travelled in 17 countries. The teddy bear is very clean, and have many accesories on it. The teddy bear is safe, so her daddy and her are safe too. The journey for the teddy bear would go on, and the little girl can relax."
I wish my teddy bear and his daddy is doing fine.
Unexpected May 6th, 2005
So many things happened at the same time,
I was scared, disappointed and almost lost my mind.
I went to see counselor to psychiatrist and doctors.
Recommendation from moving-on to moving to psyc-unit.
Prescription from 2 Ativan to 20 Ativan,
From 20 Ativan back to 2 Ativan,
Advanced from 2 Ativan to 5 Prozac.
I was spending time in the waiting room,
without knowing what was going to happen.
The pharmist was asking me "I don't understand why you received such a small dosage?"
I told him that they want to make sure I am not taking too much and see me hanging there everyday.
I looked at myself, where am I? What am I doing?
I was unable to think at all.
It was terrible.
Stand-by next to the phone,
in case my couselor calls me.
If it doesn't work, we try something else. Great keep trying.
I was scared, disappointed and almost lost my mind.
I went to see counselor to psychiatrist and doctors.
Recommendation from moving-on to moving to psyc-unit.
Prescription from 2 Ativan to 20 Ativan,
From 20 Ativan back to 2 Ativan,
Advanced from 2 Ativan to 5 Prozac.
I was spending time in the waiting room,
without knowing what was going to happen.
The pharmist was asking me "I don't understand why you received such a small dosage?"
I told him that they want to make sure I am not taking too much and see me hanging there everyday.
I looked at myself, where am I? What am I doing?
I was unable to think at all.
It was terrible.
Stand-by next to the phone,
in case my couselor calls me.
If it doesn't work, we try something else. Great keep trying.
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
(乙水)(乙水)轉
人去了床都未暖 誰都只急於得償素願
誰教我桃花亂轉 跟我終生的走得幾遠
＊（乙水）（乙水）轉 菊花園
離離去去會有幾多段
（乙水）（乙水）轉 菊花園
誰衡量過每段愛太易太短＊
＃我也想從此 玩過就算
可知我花園中心煩也意亂
誰亦又趣戀完再戀餘下的青春怎算 流浪
未到一半便棄船（沒了沒完）＃
誰叫我良心易軟 回憶一一都絲連藕斷
來往過無恩沒怨 深信一位位去亦是緣
Repeat ＊＃＃w/o（）
我也想從此 不愛便算
好好過單身的生活當志願
明日我會點 還會點 期望我永未疲倦
情字 樂於永沒決定權
隨緣 別作戀愛預算
誰教我桃花亂轉 跟我終生的走得幾遠
＊（乙水）（乙水）轉 菊花園
離離去去會有幾多段
（乙水）（乙水）轉 菊花園
誰衡量過每段愛太易太短＊
＃我也想從此 玩過就算
可知我花園中心煩也意亂
誰亦又趣戀完再戀餘下的青春怎算 流浪
未到一半便棄船（沒了沒完）＃
誰叫我良心易軟 回憶一一都絲連藕斷
來往過無恩沒怨 深信一位位去亦是緣
Repeat ＊＃＃w/o（）
我也想從此 不愛便算
好好過單身的生活當志願
明日我會點 還會點 期望我永未疲倦
情字 樂於永沒決定權
隨緣 別作戀愛預算
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